Monday, October 11, 2004
As i was on the bus today going home after a whole shift .. i was listening to my md player ..
Mostly all of my songs are china, so here came a song by B.A.D.- Wo de Chuo
The song is about how this guy lost his gf , by being insensitive and in the end lost her for his callous actions.And it fits mi so well ..
While i was hummin along the songs, my tears started to well up from my tear glands ....
but i know i couldnt, coz i promised myself nt to ...
nt to wht .. u may ask .. dun get the wrong idea on mi wanting to forget him ..
no but a promise to myself ... those who knw will knw .. those who dun .. sorry it is within me and those who knws
So i was struggling hard .. forcing myself to swallow down the pain ..
It was a tough one to hold it down ...
Basically you can really feel the pain and agony in your throat ... but yet , u have to forced it down .. forcing the pain down ..
actually it is worse than crying .. coz when u forced urself to swallow, ur heart ended up to be injured ...
But a promise is a promise, thus deep breaths are being held in ... controllling 1 .. 2 ... 3
A battle was waged and after a hard and long struggle ... i won.
tears den got held back ...
I den realise when you so want to cry , but cant ...
it is really a torture ... coz the swallowing is so hard .... but i must ...
i had no choice ... even if i can break my promise, i wouldnt ...
++ cravings ++
+ Get a Better Job
+ Coach Wallet
+ Ipod Nano 4GB in Silver
+ LCD monitor [ W/S opt ]
+ Johnnie Walker Blue Label
+ [ Sold ] LG Prada Phone
+ Ralph Lauren Polo
* White, Black and Blue
+ LG KS10
+ Nintendo DS Lite
+ R4 Option for DS
+ Digicam 7 mega pixels
+ Weight : 52 - 55 kg
+ save up for investment
+ Ralph Lauren / Gucci Bag
+ Have a Business of my mine
* believe mi i hve tons of ideas « hide details
