Journey of my own ....

Thursday, September 30, 2004

Was on the bus today while comin back from my shift ...

thot of something .... thot of wht cin said to me ..
tht nite i asked her wht is her requirements for her boyfriend ..
she said some stuffs tht i chose not to say here ....
and i asked her wht does she tink abt my requirements for boyfriends
she said to me tht " tht guy must like u 1st than you thot of being a relationship with tht guy "

when i thot of it now ... i have to totally agree on tht ...
coz for all the past relationship .. it seems as that guy thot me that he liked me .. then i will consider my feelings ... so no matter how much i do like a guy, i will never say it out ( erm actually i did once .. but tht was through email .. and the funnie thing is it was my lecturer .. but he is so freaking cute and nerdy .. my type )
but it is not tht once a guy say he like mi, i will deffo accept the relationship .. NO NO
i did reject 3 guys before ... coz two of them are too boring for my type .. another one was too ahbeng ~! ... yawnzzz ...

but wht i really was tinkin was tht am i tht passive .. and not active ..
i mean i am quite a out-spoken person as in i express my distaste in a second and can be a bitch .. but yet in terms of feelings ... i am yet another side of being reserved ...
juz another pt to discuss about with being reserved ..
i realise i never like to discuss initimate issues or thoughts with my loved ones ...
it seems like whenever i am in a relationship, when i have thoughts i wouldnt say it out ... but yet demand the other party to ...y so ? and yet it is not gd .. coz it always end up ruinin my relationship, as when i keep it to myself, my temper get irritated easily ... and again ...

well ... i guess tht is wht we call self-reflection den

[ - 雯'§ - ] penning down @ 9/30/2004 08:13:00 PM

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