Saturday, September 11, 2004
a lot of things happened recently ...
a lot of memories keep triggering things tht i been suppressing and not allowing myself to remember ...
tears juz keep flowing down frm my face ..
i couldnt even control them trickling down ....
i dunnoe y i juz keep crying .. sadness keep overwhelmin my thots and my minds ..
i juz keep crying n crying .. i dun understand ... i dun understand at all ..
i dun understand y the suppressed emotions suddenly surged out all so fast, makin me so drained of emotions ...
within 2 days, i have use tears to wash my face for like upteen times ...
alan, do u knw i miss u so much ....
do u knw i miss u so much ....
i knw u might be well by now .. tht is gd ... as long as u are happy ...
but i really miss u so much .. i miss ur smile .. i miss u by my side .. being my support ..
i knw i dun tell u things abt my life .. coz i always tot tht even by tellin u , it doesnt help .. but by u being there den, was enuff for me ...
but i din realise tht den ......
what can i say .. i can oni blame myself for nt cherishing u ..
i really miss u ... i really do
even though i am no longer in ur heart, but u always be in mine ...
++ cravings ++
+ Get a Better Job
+ Coach Wallet
+ Ipod Nano 4GB in Silver
+ LCD monitor [ W/S opt ]
+ Johnnie Walker Blue Label
+ [ Sold ] LG Prada Phone
+ Ralph Lauren Polo
* White, Black and Blue
+ LG KS10
+ Nintendo DS Lite
+ R4 Option for DS
+ Digicam 7 mega pixels
+ Weight : 52 - 55 kg
+ save up for investment
+ Ralph Lauren / Gucci Bag
+ Have a Business of my mine
* believe mi i hve tons of ideas « hide details
