Monday, September 11, 2006
Ramdom quote of the day :"The best contraceptive is a fake name."
As mentioned, was tokkin to Adam yesterday during dinner. He keep reminding me how long would i need to wake up from my ideas and being realistic abt my own needs.
From wht he analysis from my character, i need to start lookin for some1 else whom i can like, den develop a frenzship for least 2 yrs b4 deciding is he the one. And from the one to being able to trust him whole-heartedly, i would need another 1 yr to move on to marriage. So by the rate tht i am goin at, it seems tht i would be the losing end. For i am the one who is silly to not move on and not towards greener pastures.
Whtever he is sayin, it is a pierce in the heart for tht blow was cruical. It seems as though everytime i tok to him, he would be able to make mi tear and feel tht stabbing pain.
Perphas, i should really follow wht he says on juz finding another replacement for me to throw in order to hve damage reduced to the minimum. Not considering wht is fair to the other party, but juz be happy with the situation. But Can i really do tht ? I dun tink so, i dun wan to be tht individual to be in love juz to be in love. I wan to really love some1 who i will like to be with, not some1 who is acceptable and juz settled with it. I am being too idealistic i supposed. Plus i do like my current life, though it is painful but no pain no gain. Sighzzz ...
Labels: [life], [ramblings], [thots]
[ - 雯'§ - ] penning down @ 9/11/2006 01:01:00 PM
