Sunday, August 20, 2006
Ramdom quote of the day :"If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?"
At the early part of the yr, i said really mean things to some1 from my past. And during like a mth ago, I mentioned abt him again for my past. Den recently, i thot of how my past actions have reflected in the failure of the relationship.
Now i wonder did i did it wrong ? Was it too harsh ? For i did once love him tht deeply enuff to feel pain, and for him to love me den and how he would dote me unconditionally. Mayb it is just not the right timing den and thus a serious scar is the only thing left between us. I still remember that desperation and unhappiness i had during my 2nd spd assignment for it was the day before he gave me his decision. And how helpless the feelin was coz i couldnt do anything to change or to rectify anything. Den leading to how i cried during the holidays and weep in the corner of my rental room and hiding in the dark cupboard, immersely myself in darkness. And how uncle jo would come dwn from his place to check on me while i gave him an answer of mi being fine ( which i was not ). Den it comes down to the happier times we had, the huggies and kisses we shared at one fullerton, the mischef i would cause him to hve tht smirk on his face, the gentle comfort he provides while slpin within his arms, and how he would marvel on new recipes that we would create in his kitchen. Not forgettin moments like our picnic at botanic gardens, our escapades weekend and how detail-oriented for boyfriend material. Sighz, all these details and memories .. Sighz, so blast from the past.
It is not of me to regret my past actions, and i neber did coz wht done has been done. And for tht, one should really do is to look forward and be a better person. With tht in mind, i knw i changed quite a fair bit, but yet couldnt hlp wonderin ...
Concidentally , bought style magazine for this new september, my horoscope came down to :
"You're about to rediscover your romantic soul. This also happens to be a colourful montbh so get all dressed up and set out to make an impression. But when it comes to some1 else's intentions there's a big question: Will he or won't he? Well, he probably will! BUt not until he's sure that you're not going to perform some silly stunt. Plus, you'll be hankering after the past, wondering whatever happened to that person who once turned your head."
[ - 雯'§ - ] penning down @ 8/20/2006 04:56:00 PM
