Anyway Gradutation is recently, so Jovy n Alvin with family is back in town ... When i called him on Sunday, it was so fun as mi, him and alvin been tokkin on the phone .. Juz like the old days. And later Saw Jovy, the sight of him hangin ard the city with his ever usual Espirit White Jacket was a missed sight and something tht made my heart skipped a beat ... He had a new haircut, which made him kinda more boyish and his casual slack attitude ... As i saw him at the curb, i couldnt stop grinning, and realised i really missed him loads.

Den on Monday, sort of spent the whole noon and evenin with him. Had a great chat, while he gave me his observation with the others coursemates we had on their changes and stuffs. But yet he neber said once about how it was to me without his presense ... He commented abt how Richard ( tht guy who gave us mooncakes ) seems kinda de-moralized and stuff .. Yesterday, i juz couldnt hlped not hangin ard with him, tokkin to me, wantin his attention .. But i guess i knw deep down in me, i knw it is impossible ... Impossible for us in the present and the future. For both of us are way too much different, for both of us are different worlds and intelluctuals ... Even though we knw each other very well, but still there is a distance between us which can never be breached. I cant forget tht how close he sat besides me showing mi the pics in his hp and the clips he had in his mobile ... Tht closeness and tht sweetness ...

Today, he came by to sch to take pics with his regalia ... i juz refused to come to sch by den, for he would most definately asked to take pics .. I knw it is cruel and mean for mi not to go, but if i were to appear, it would mean tht he is gone , gone frm my present and walkin towards his future. Which i am happy but yet sad .. For he is able to do his best at his endevour, but it aso signifies tht the times with him is now to be buried as past and memories ... I wouldnt wan tht, true it seems tht i am runnin away frm the truth and fact .. but now i chose of tht ... coz no matter how much runnin i do, deep down in my heart, i still hve to admit ....

He been leavin tml, i might nt be able to be like jerlin whom she pursue him and approach him directly. But i be here for him quietly and discreetly, supportin him whtever he does ...

Arghz, i am sprouting nonsense again ... tok later .. now should be concentratin on my work ...
Cya and best of lucks to those who graduated ...
Love , Sonya « hide the crap