Anyway .. It came to me that i should apprepicate more of life, for i am still here, free of diseases and disabilities. And with tht i should be gladful living. Ironically, today while i was travellin to the City for my job search, deep thots( in my view ) came in mind.

It was on the decision on being a full ledged vegetarian. Currently I am a part-timer, which means i hve meat onli on alternative days. Back last few mths, i decided to go for a trial period on being a full vegan diet, which i had NO meat within for like 2 - 3 mths. The experience of within the time period was really unexpecting, for i do feel lighter. Lighter in steps, less lethagic and more alert. So with tht, it is a pro for my decision. But den i was tinkin abt how Singapore is still very vegan unfriendly, and it might WILL cause some a lot of inconviences for my family. So Strike 1. Thinkin within while walking and listening to my mp3, one things leads to another on how my religion affect my decision on being a vegan. In one of the free buddhism books i read b4 ( though i din read much ), it comes to mind to me very often and another it is quite true in some sense.
Imagine a celebration for example a birthday party with full ledged food , meat particularly. Friends enjoying ur birth day and family close within, smiling and enjoyin ur company. With ur celebration, animals are being killed for their flesh. How would their parents feel if they were to see such ( okie some might defend, animals hve no thots of such, So bear with mi on allowing animals with such thots and feelings ), not being able to enjox ur offspring company. Why should they celebrate our birth with their death ? ( do not try to give mi tht science terms on we being the superior kind ). Hence the encouragement on being vegan through buddhism. With the above i mentioned about, it seems to be tht i am able to understand the essense of the quote. But yet i questioned myself, do i ? From death of animals tht life within us, the quote also do act a reminder to ppl tht life is precious and we should appreciate life as it goes. Be gladful tht we are alive and life has given us all a chance to be here. Tht is why i question myself .. Within the last mth, i was troubled by sme woes( nt money though i do hve probs with tht as well ) which I hve no ideas to solve. I even told to myself den, if worst come to worst and my plans is to be disrupted, i rather die than to let it happen.( once again, those who knw other other woes, it is not abt money ) With tht previous thot in mind, how much of i hve acknowledged that life is precious. And i should appreciate it, not comment on such easily. Here i am knwing life is precious and hence reducing the lives tht i hve taken, but yet in another i mocked myself by commenting casually on ending life, not keepin in mind wht my actions were. So the quote tht pops up, do i really understand the essense and apply it to life, or am i juz using logical reasonings and mind-mappin for the outcome and just scraping at the bottom of the barrel. Or juz mayb i am tinkin way too much .... « hide the crap