Its weird u see, as long as 1 - 3 mths ago, i always complain about how lonely i feel and how i missed being with some1. But recently, it juz hit mi that I am actually enjoxing being no strings attached and is afraid of being involved with any1. As mentioned before about on tht guy yesterday, i find myself saying that its the freedom that i wan to him when asked about how i feel about relationship .. and even if i were to be in a relationship, i would expect tht kind of freedom i have now ... Go as i please , do as i like ..
It is of no doubt i wish to be with some1 who csn care of mi and love mi for who i am. but the freedom that i possess is the main part mostly ppl could nt understand. Hence i slowly close my heart on choosing not to be involved and goin on with the life i have now .. It weird u see on the growth that i go through everyday and mths juz gone by.
It is of nt tht i am nt interested, but i am juz tired of the hassles on needin to sacrifice time to spend with tht individual i have in my heart. True some might argue on, tht is how love is .. Scarifices .. but all in all, I love myself and my family, frenz more than any1 else ..
I know its irresponsible on me saying this and doin this, but I am a loner.. tht enjox my quiet time and quiet life .. doing wht i hve in mind and tinkin wht i should do nxt , planning wht is to be enjox ... with or without a fren ...
Maybe its a phrase that i am goin through on being a single lady and maintaining a non-marriage relationship with any1. Or mayb i juz haben met tht some1 ...

It is still true tht i wish to be in a relationship, but with nt given a choice on hvin a guy who can tolerate my character on hvin personal space i rather stay wht i am now ... « hide the crap