anyway he was sayin how he is losing focus of himself .. and his life .. sometimes at a pt, do you guys tink u can really control of wht u wan to do and plan to do ...

yes i knw i am one of the most inappropiate person to say such things .. coz i like to plan and plan ... but like i said b4 .. i now .. as i grow up more and more .. the more i accept ..
yes i am still complainin .. but i aso slowly learn to accept .. accept wht i am .. wht i can do .. and my ability .. of course .. i will aso take note of i can excel wht i am already in .. as i am a person who always set target once i see i can reach one ...

anyway now .. i need to lose 3 more kg .. 3 more kg ... i wan tht to happen sooon ~!!! coz i made a bet with mr alvin tan .. and i will not lose .. but my itchy mouth ... haizzz .. sianzz ..
to tink abt it .. frm last june till now .. i hve lost an total of 10 - 15 kg .. it is an amazing thing tht happen to me .. sometimes i do realise i am riskin my health to tis weight .. but being at tis weight .. i feel a certain freedom and satisfaction of myself .. but yet it is so unhealthy ...
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See the difference ?????
gosh .. wht is wrong with mi ...
blah i am rambling again as well ..
sianzzz now back to the txtbk .. need to finish up and off to work ... cya
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