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Sunday, May 23, 2004
 
In love , it is always have either heartaches or heartbreak...
It is juz a matter on how u wan to perceive it ...

i am now lost ... very confined in an area of losing some1 ...

i do feel for him , and in the past , i hve to say i hve been so spoilt by him and by tht, i changed to a more demanding person ( human are always greedy )
and now with tht, i got angry easily and loses my temper easily as well ...
it always make it a strain to tok to mi ... but he still persists on it ...
and i am gladful for tht ....

yesterday, i spent the whole nite reading quotes and stories and consoling by a certain fren .... i began to realise tht i was a fool den , i was so self-focused tht now i am in the verge to lost tht some1 ....
but i am not lettin go .... for i believe in us ... and though i am hurt ... by this situation , i still refused to let it go ... tht becoz i am stubborn or unreasonable ... but becoz i am drawing strength from wht i feel for him ... trust mi .. i do feel sad ... i feel sad not becoz it is to the end .. but i feel sad for i might hve the chance on not being able to spend my rest of my life with him ... it might be silly ... but i never felt so secure b4 in my life ....

i dun wan to look back into the past , for now it is time for mi to look and build up my present n future .... i really wish i can hve tht chance and not let it slipped away .... he always been strong in this relationship , now he is lost ... i guess it is time for mi to be strong to show him and guide him the way .... actually i do feel distance from him . not becoz i am in auzzie , but becoz he has build up a dam around him tht is how distance i am , for i do feel for him ...

now all i can tink is to grab this happiness tht i can hve , and not to let it go .. for it is the most sought after thing ... treasure a relationship


[ - 雯'§ - ] penning down @ 5/23/2004 08:37:00 PM

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